What a difference a year (or in this case 19 months!) makes. There are moments in life when you realize just how impactful that moment in time is, yet you have no way of truly understanding the full effect the changes that will come will have on you. For me, those moments have been leaving for college, graduating from college, marriage and the birth of my child. I’m sure more moments are to come, but for now, I’m reflecting on what has changed for me in that most recent significant moment. A reflection from my son’s birth to now…
New baby: Bundle him up, take diaper bag filled with every possible thing you could ever need, bring two back-up outfits, text everyone pictures of his outing.
One year later: Throw a diaper, and if I remember some wipes, in my purse and grab him as we run out the door because we’re late, take selfie of his food all over me when sitting at stop light.
New baby: He will absolutely only eat organic, local food. Always. For his entire life.
One year later: He’s upset! He’s starving, give this child something, ANYTHING, to eat!
New baby: Gently swaddle him and respond to every sound he makes. I must never put him down.
One year old: Give him a few minutes, that was just the sound of his pacifiers being thrown from the crib one at a time to see how far away he can get them.
New baby: He’s not pooping. Is he pooping too much? Wait, check this poop, is that the right color?
One year old: OMG, So. Much. Poop.
New baby: Will he ever sleep? Will I ever sleep again? Must make it through the day…
One year old: Don’t tell anyone (you wouldn’t want to jinx it!) but he’s sleeping through the night. Do you think this will last? I can’t sleep, I’m so excited that he’s actually sleeping! [crying from his room] And we’re teething.
New baby: We’ll only ever have one toy out for him – something educational, nothing plastic
One year old: [at store] “OMG – we have to get him this! It’s so awesome and he would love it and he only has like 100 new toys from Grandma and Papa so we definitely need to get him this one too. It’s OK that it’s plastic.”
New baby: How can I have so much love for someone I only just met? This incredible feeling I have for one human being is surreal.
One year old: How can my love be even greater today than 19 months ago? The love is somehow even more incredible with each passing day. The moments – both wonderful and trying – are filled with love and admiration for this tiny human I’m blessed to call my son.